I fight my internalized fatphobia every moment of every day. I want to go back to that thin body but I know that is impossible. Don’t you know diets fail? Don’t you know that you’ll just put more weight on? Don’t you know that, yes, you may be able to diet one more time, but do you have one more recovery left in you?  I repeat these things in my head. Then along comes this thing called a pandemic, and with it all these jokes about “the COVID 15,”and how you can’t stop eating while you’re home, and how you’re going to weigh so much they’ll have to find a forklift to carry…